Clarity, where'd ya go?

I think I'm stressing myself out over absolutely nothing, but lately I do not feel like the bubbly everyday Kayla, although I read my horoscope for today or yesterday, I can't remember but the title was "clarity will come by the weekend" I sure hope its true, I'm not one to base my life around a horoscope that is sent out to every single who was born in July, and is a Cancer.. Everyone has different lifestyles and day to day trials and tribulations to overcome, they just write in contexts everyone can relate to so they don't feel alone... I suppose it works, I wonder how many people have subscribed to daily, weekly, monthly, and yearly updated horoscopes.. I bet it would be a substantial amount that would probably not surprise me, because I can imagine.

Anyways the sun is shining, and its currently not on me, so I'm going to spend sometime outside. I'll update more later today.

Update:

Okay so, I said I'd update more today, so here it is..

Today I hung with my mother again, we sun tanned a little, and I played with gizmo and took some cute photos of him and flowers that are in bloom now and these lawn gnomes that Scott and I stole a few years ago when we went gnoming.. Some of them turned out beautiful, I absolutely love summertime, it smell of it, and the warm weather, its just amazing.

Billy may come over for a little while this evening, I haven't seen him in a few days, because I've been keeping my time table open because I'd really like to be able to see Sean soon, but hes been busy with other shit, hopefully soon I'll see him, I need to, I've been really bummed out lately, and no matter what Sean chills me out, brings me back to earth I suppose you can say.. I love how I can just sit around and watch tv with him and not get bored.. I'm really going to miss him the most when I move I think. Damn moving.. Oh well I'm sure no matter where we end up in a years time we will still be in touch. Hes the only person from highschool that I see regularly, and I care about seeing, its so odd how things change when you get out of highschool, the people you were the closest with, don't exsist in your life anymore, even though at the time you made pacts to never lose touch, but thats life!

I really currently don't feel like moving, or doing anything, I feel like I'm missing some pieces, this really sucks.

I can only hope that tomorrow when I wake up, things will be okay finally.. When you think you have nothing, you always something, and thats hope.. Without hope, theres no point to anything. Its hard sometimes to keep hope, but everyone secretly has it, even when they say they've lost it all. If you had no hope you'd never bother to wake up everyday and do your daily routine.

Always keep the faith.