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According to yahoo news:

"Sunday April 11, 4:09 PM
Pick your nose and eat snot to stay healthy!
Washington, Apr 11(ANI): It may sound weird, but an Austrian doctor believes that picking your nose and eating what you retrieve is one of the best ways to stay healthy.
Dr. Friedrich Bischinger, an Innsbruck-based lung specialist believes that people who pick their noses with their fingers are healthy, happier and probably better in tune with their bodies.
He says society should adopt a new approach to nose-picking and encourage children to take it up.
"With the finger you can get to places you just can't reach with a handkerchief, keeping your nose far cleaner.And eating the dry remains of what you pull out is a great way of strengthening the body's immune system," Ananova quotes Dr. Bischinger, as saying.
"Medically it makes great sense and is a perfectly natural thing to do. In terms of the immune system the nose is a filter in which a great deal of bacteria are collected, and when this mixture arrives in the intestines it works just like a medicine," he added.
He pointed out that children happily pick their noses, yet by the time they have become adults they have stopped under pressure from a society that has branded it disgusting and anti-social.
"I would recommend a new approach where children are encouraged to pick their nose. It is a completely natural response and medically a good idea as well," he said. (ANI)"

PRETTY GNARLY!

Gnarly.

So I had my tonsils removed (cauterized out), I'm not going to go into great detail right now because I'm currently cranked on t4's and tired as shit.

I'll leave you with this lovely picture to take in.

Swollen tongue/everything, and in general, just a nasty mouth right now.

Breathe me.

Saturday we drove alittle over two hours to see the new house, I bought a made amount of munchies the evening before for the trip, haha. We stopped in at my grandparents house and hungout with them for abit, had a beer and just shot the shit. I played with my grandmothers kitty Charlie a bunch, I got a few cute pictures of him. Then we headed out and over to the storage place and unloaded some boxes, left there and headed straight for the new house, and I certainly am not impressed with moving there period, then I saw the area and decided I'd just sit in the car when they looked at it, my mom came back extremely bummed out and angry, the house is a dump, sucks that you already put down first and last months rent, idiot. I told them not to move, how many times? I sat in the car infront of the house, facing the opposite way and just cringed, the amount of dirty little brats playing at the community park across the street made me sick, and their mothers looked about 20, with three young children, ever heard of condoms? I decided January I'll be starting College, then in about a years time I will be attending University, even if I have to take out a huge ridiculous amount of student loans, because I am certainly not staying in that city.

I can't wait to start working on getting my career though, I'm afraid of the amount of money I'll need to sink into it, but it'll be well worth it when everything is done and over with, I'll be a happy camper forsure.

But I am going to start my day, go shower and what not, I'll update this post a little more later today once I know whats going on today, or what happens today.

Download this song: Sia- Breathe Me

Update:

So I had an epic day, I blazed with my brother for his first time ever and sent the kid to the moon and he loved it. Then we realized some guy was in our backyard cutting down our big tree :(. It was a huge bummer.. Worst part is the guy didn't even clean up the large mess of tree pieces laying around the backyard.. Thanks a lot asshole.

Christian asked me to go to his prom with him on June 28th, and I said yes, since I never had the chance to have one of my own.. I am completely excited, I get to go dress shopping soon.. Maybe I'll find someone to do it up with, maybe Amber is free, because I really doubt a guy would want to go dress shopping with me.

I was cleaning out my room earlier.. and I found a note my ex hid from years ago that I had never found, it sorta bummed me out.. Whatever though, too bad the kid turned out to be a huge idiot. Such as life. I have the worst trouble with dudes, I really need to stop caring about everything in general when it comes to anything walking with a penis.. Except my dog, hes a sweetheart, and I love him unconditionally.

Anyways I'm a tired one and I'm going to smoke and sleep.

I miss my friends, and soon I'll be gone.

Clarity, where'd ya go?

I think I'm stressing myself out over absolutely nothing, but lately I do not feel like the bubbly everyday Kayla, although I read my horoscope for today or yesterday, I can't remember but the title was "clarity will come by the weekend" I sure hope its true, I'm not one to base my life around a horoscope that is sent out to every single who was born in July, and is a Cancer.. Everyone has different lifestyles and day to day trials and tribulations to overcome, they just write in contexts everyone can relate to so they don't feel alone... I suppose it works, I wonder how many people have subscribed to daily, weekly, monthly, and yearly updated horoscopes.. I bet it would be a substantial amount that would probably not surprise me, because I can imagine.

Anyways the sun is shining, and its currently not on me, so I'm going to spend sometime outside. I'll update more later today.

Update:

Okay so, I said I'd update more today, so here it is..

Today I hung with my mother again, we sun tanned a little, and I played with gizmo and took some cute photos of him and flowers that are in bloom now and these lawn gnomes that Scott and I stole a few years ago when we went gnoming.. Some of them turned out beautiful, I absolutely love summertime, it smell of it, and the warm weather, its just amazing.

Billy may come over for a little while this evening, I haven't seen him in a few days, because I've been keeping my time table open because I'd really like to be able to see Sean soon, but hes been busy with other shit, hopefully soon I'll see him, I need to, I've been really bummed out lately, and no matter what Sean chills me out, brings me back to earth I suppose you can say.. I love how I can just sit around and watch tv with him and not get bored.. I'm really going to miss him the most when I move I think. Damn moving.. Oh well I'm sure no matter where we end up in a years time we will still be in touch. Hes the only person from highschool that I see regularly, and I care about seeing, its so odd how things change when you get out of highschool, the people you were the closest with, don't exsist in your life anymore, even though at the time you made pacts to never lose touch, but thats life!

I really currently don't feel like moving, or doing anything, I feel like I'm missing some pieces, this really sucks.

I can only hope that tomorrow when I wake up, things will be okay finally.. When you think you have nothing, you always something, and thats hope.. Without hope, theres no point to anything. Its hard sometimes to keep hope, but everyone secretly has it, even when they say they've lost it all. If you had no hope you'd never bother to wake up everyday and do your daily routine.

Always keep the faith.

Sixty five years to go!

Well I've decided to share myself with the world finally.. Sean showed me this "blog spot" ordeal and I figured I'd give it a shot.



Today has been a fairly bland day, I can't say I'm enjoying it, I feel sort of frustrated with life, its about time I suppose, lately I've just been feeling way too good, I figured a down day was bound to happen soon.. I suppose its today.


My day has consisted of showering, going through my clothing, getting rid of stuff I do not need, sitting outside with my rats and dog, then making soft tacos a box of 8 for one person, I only managed to eat two, I guess my eyes are bigger than my stomach at times.. Or I just smoke way too much ganja, either way, whatever, I'm having an uneventful day. Hopefully tomorrow that changes, I hope to see Sean, that would be great :).

I can't wait for June to roll around, I get to see Michael, I can't wait, I can't wait to wrap my arms around his silly head, I haven't seen him since January, much has changed since but I still love him very much as a person, and he still makes me swoon, but with a little bit of heart-sick attached to it now.. He has made me a better person though, I've got more patiences now, and I'm more content.. Sometimes I sit and listen to his solo disc he give me and just fall apart, how ridiculous am I? I'm such a strong person, yet a huge emotional wreck over small things. I've heard the words "you can do so much better" so many times, but if you only could understand the way I see him, then you'd understand when I fail to agree with you or myself when its I saying the words.



This weekend should be okay as well, I hope to see Tyler in the next little while, it was nice spending those few days with him, hes changed quite a bit... I don't want a relationship of any sort or anything like that but I'd love to have someone I can see regularly, and go on dates with, its a great feeling having those little things, I love them the most in a relationship, and when things start to get serious those little things aren't too important anymore, its just sex, and paying the bills, it sucks, but thats life I suppose, but maybe one day I'll find someone who enjoys the little things as much as I do, and they'll never die down.. That'll be the day, until then I guess I'll keep my options open, and just wait it out for that day... Its quite ironic though, I always get the "you're beautiful, any guy would want you.." yet anyone I'm interested in is looking the other way at the girl with the magnificent rack, then thinking with the lower head, if you get my drift.. I'm not going to blame them though, I check out girls with huge racks too, and I'm the farthest thing from gay.. But maybe I'm just searching in all the wrong areas, although I shouldn't even be worrying about this, I still have about 65 years to find the 'one'. I just hate the process of searching for someone I can be equally balanced with, so maybe I'm just going to give up for now..

-Kayla